Write it down.
I’m in a bad mood.
And because I’m in one helluva crappy mood, I needed to do something, anything.
So I threw some chicken into the crockpot to feel some sort of productive and now I’m sitting in the middle of my living room floor typing out my rage. Yes, right in the middle of it.
I moved my coffee table off to the side weeks ago to make a little workout space and have yet to move it back. I also recently sold my couch and bought more dumbbells so I’m surrounded by weights, a kettlebell, Jerry on my pink chair, and that’s about it.
Why am I pissed off sitting in the middle of my floor you ask?
No idea. There really is no reason. And while we’re still living mostly in quarantine, I don’t need to have a reason. And neither do you. So if you’re angry for no reason more often than not lately. Oh well. That’s just how it’s going to be.
Now. Here’s where I might be a little different. Part of my mood for sure is because it’s my rest day. So dumb, I know. I’m the worst. But besides 400m of lunges, which I’ve told myself I will do every day in May, I have done little else.
Could also be because the dairy free creamer I put in my post-lunge coffee was definitely past it’s expiration date and I had to waste the entire massive beautiful hot cup of Tim Hortons joy.
And now here is where I might be a lot different. When these moods come, which is always, I don’t let them make me lazy, enabling the bad mood even more. I roll my eyes at every Instagram post I see that says it’s okay to not be okay and it’s okay to not workout, eat like crap, blah blah blah. And not because I disagree. But because I agree and I hate myself for agreeing.
Every once in a very blue moon I will do the whole screw it I’m staying on the couch thing. And I haven’t died yet. I realize it’s a big weak area for me. This horrible self talk and forcing myself to be productive. But now, when it’s just me and Jerry, how dare I be lazy when there are full time moms and dads out there that are struggling to run a family and a business or have been laid off and don’t know what the next few weeks will look like.
The least I can do is get up, throw some damn chicken in the DAMN crockpot, lunge a few hundred times, and sell more of my furniture. RIGHT? Right.
As the moods hit, particularly in the last few days, I have started writing out goals. Physically writing and rewriting them out. Real, solid goals for myself with food, fitness, and life.
I didn’t plan it this way but it happened that on Friday May 1st, the first day of a new month, I timed myself for a mile run and did my first 400m round of walking lunges. I plan to test my mile in the next couple days again and I plan to keep the lunge streak going all month. A small, some might say stupid, stupid challenge but it’s a challenge and that’s how I operate.
I also re-downloaded the Strava app which a giant community of endurance athletes and running/biking/swimming/climbing crazy people and followed a bunch of well known ultra runners to see what they do daily and get some kick in he pants from them.
I’m a master manipulator of my diet but even I have my faults and the way I’ve been eating hasn’t changed in years so therefore, neither have I. Throughout May I’m going to play more with carb cycling and take more control over what foods I’m cooking and preparing. I’ll be sure to update how that is going. As many know, I eat very healthy and clean. But that’s not always what you need to see results you want to see. Food at a certain point has to be seen more as strictly fuel. For instance, instead of looking at a salad as salad = healthy. It has to be salad = # of protein, fat, carbs. I won’t bore you here with the details but that is personally another food adventure I shall be embarking on. I have the time. I sometimes have the discipline. Time to test it.
With all the writing I’ve been doing here, I can do more. My life is weird but I know I have things I can bring to the table in regards to staying self motivated and living a strong and healthy lifestyle. Past clients I hope can attest to that. Therefore, I’m committing to a lifestyle ebook to have ready to go as lockdowns ease up and people are eager to get back to eating, moving, and living a bit more freely.
You see what I’m doing here? I’m typing out my life map. A few hard, solid goals. I’m putting it out there in rant form right now so I have a better chance of sticking to it.
To live a free and healthy life. You have to set yourself up to do so. And know that when you fail, or find yourself in a crappy mood, that’s no excuse to not pick up and keep going. Don’t dwell. Just do.
The more we put ourselves in the environment we need to be successful the better off we will be.
Connect with the people who push you, not those that enable you. Create the kitchen you need that will keep you on track, not enable stupid snacking. Set up a workspace that is productive, not one in bed surrounded by your tv and phone. If I can do that one in the three rooms I have then you can too.
If you’re struggling to eat well right now. then for gods sake, start prepping basic meal components. Read all about that here. And start purging the crap. Or at least put the processed stuff somewhere “off limits.” Don’t make things harder by having processed or poor choices ready to snack on in your kitchen. Take the time to plan out your meals and prepare the necessary components.
And if you aren’t willing to do that, well then don’t bitch to me when you are still not losing weight. If you need more hard truth around this, check out this post here.
I’m grumpy over here people, I don’t want to hear it.
Compartmentalize the areas of your life into well, compartments. And write out the big actions items you will take to create the environment, routine, and schedule you need to be successful. The simpler and more straightforward the better.
The first Monday of a new month. Plan for the day, the week, the month. Take moments to pause and observe your current feelings and situation. And do not succumb to the negativity, if there is any. Use it as fuel. And take control.